Big Girls Just Want to Have Fun….Too!

Much of my adult life and some of my childhood has been spent with the battle of the bulge raging. Like any war, there are times when battles are heated and times when there is not a lot going on. Times when I am winning, and times when I am losing. It is a tug of war that I consider the thorn in my flesh that the Apostle Paul refers to. There are many reasons that even outside the obvious health concerns, being big sucks. One thing I have learned over the years is I am GOOD at being fat. I am not so good at being thin. This is evidenced by the fact that when I have achieved victory, it is short-lived whereas the plumper times of life endure. The world is not built for larger people. And in a society where people are getting even larger, we push and push the look of anorexia over health. Marilyn Monroe would probably be made fun of in the tabloids for her weight if she had been born 15 years later.  mcdPeople are getting bigger while airplane seats get smaller, theater seats get smaller, cloths are skimpier. On the other hand, in the midst of the battle to overcome obesity in America, go out to eat at any restaurant and the plates are overflowing with carb rich dishes that are big enough to feed a family of four in the 50’s. I remember going to McDonald’s with my parents when I was 4. It was such a treat because going out to eat was not something that happened on a regular basis. We each got a hamburger or cheeseburger, what is now a small fry and a small drink. Dad got a large drink, which was the 16 ouncer. Considered HUGE at the time. He got a McDouble. Now, just to put that in perspective, each of the patties on a McDonald’s Hamburger is 1.6 oz. prior to cooking. There are 10 patties to a pound of burger. So Dad was getting about three oz. of meat. We couldn’t finish ours and maybe dad finished them for us, I cannot remember. But he didn’t get two or three for himself. And the bread he got was the same as us as opposed to a giant bun filled with two 1/4 pound patties.  People who battle weight live in a world that tells them how bad they are, yet throws cheap, unhealthy, tasty food at them all day, 24/7/365.

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On the trail above Namche Bazaar on a rest day hike during 2012 Base Camp Trek.

I have blogged before and talked about my sedentary years and massive weight gain and debilitating back pain. Rather than go through all of that again, suffice it to say that after enjoying high school and college years being extremely active in sports and marching band, I sat down and didn’t get up for about 16 years. I would always dream about the things I would do if I could only lose the weight. “When I lose my weight I am going to: Hike, bike again, play ball, kayak, travel, shop more, wear cool cloths and be happy.” That is all I had to do. Some day. Meanwhile I tried every fad diet there was with little to no long term success.

Then it hit me: I did not have to wait until I was “thin” ( whatever that really is) to do those things. After all, I am not dead yet! So I started moving again. Did some 5k walks and bought a Kayak. From 43 to 53 I have done all my hiking, climbing, trekking, kayaking adventures as a big girl. Some times bigger than others, but never at what would be considered anywhere NEAR a healthy weight. I can only imagine the last 10 years without having had that epiphany. Certainly it would have beenpicstitch (3) imminently more difficult to start at 53. But even then, I think I would have. We don’t have to look a certain way or be able to do things at a high level in order to enjoy them, enjoy the health benefits and live our lives. I am slower than the lighter and/or younger folks, but I still finish. I have had people look at me when I say what adventure I am off to next and actually ask if I am doing anything to lose weight before I go. As if those skin flints know at all what it is like to be big and if big people even feel any different from them whilst active. Some just plain look at me in disbelief. You can see the “THIS PERSON IS A B.S.er” sign flash on their foreheads. By the way, did you know Shakespeare invented the word forehead?

Truth is I do try to be healthier these days. Micky D’s and I broke up and I am now an aficionado of the paleo style of eating. Good fats, meat and lots of veggies, nuts and seeds. My beloved bread is gone now and even though I still do struggle with weight, I am healthy. I know this because my doctor monitors my health and she is a great doctor.

Me and Maggie leave for Machu Picchu August 30, 2014. I have not got near as much weight off as I would like, but I am working hard every day eating right and walking at work break, hiking at night. I am not waiting to wake up one day and find that I am suddenly thin. I may never be thin. But each day that passes is one I could have lived more. If I do not make the choice to have fun now, it will pass like a blink of an eye and I will be left with regrets. Don’t sell yourself short. Live now, rest later. 🙂

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About WhelanTrek

The mountains are in my blood and Everest has been a symbol to so many areas of my life. I blog about adventures and life in between.

Posted on June 18, 2014, in Machu Picchu, Weight Loss and Fitness Journey, Writing and tagged , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 7 Comments.

  1. Don Carmignani

    Sweetie! I do indeed feel your pain. Weight has always been a problem for me too. I have biked, hiked, walked and now I’m down to a crawl. Parkinsons has really restricted my activity. I used to bound the three miles around Angle Lake; now I struggle to make it to the Park less than a half-mile from home. So keep on going, Girl as long as you can, and love yourself for the magnificent human being you are. You’re a lot like the rest of us–just a little bit different.

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  2. I find that when I do, it motivates me to be healthier. I am trying to embrace the paleo way as the whole 30 made me feel wonderful! finding time to cook is the only draw back, and I need to make it a priority. I too know the looks, when you tell people you do something active, and they say OK and have the look that if I really did I would be thin. I am glad you have the gumption to do and not worry about what others think, you live your life and that is a big inspiration for me. So I say THANK YOU! Thank you for posting also. Love to you, Kim

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  3. Great post! Many of us struggle with weight management. I lost 50 pounds about three years ago, because it was the only thing left to try to restore my mobility. It sure helped. But every day is still a struggle to maintain this healthier weight. My body wants to be plumper than I I want it to be.

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    • I know my back is a huge alarm regarding my weight. And being mobile is more work for sure. With averaging 5 miles a day and eating healthy food I am hoping to see better results and increased fun!

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  4. You are an inspiration to this big girl! I have been fighting this for my whole life! It has been my ‘thorn’ also. This is a temporary battle that I must continue until I reach my permanent eternal home!

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    • But you don’t let it stop you from being active. So many feel imprisoned and think that prison stops all the fun. I am glad our generation is less apt to do that. However, I still hear people our age and even younger lamenting that if they were thinner they would hike or ride a bike or swim. I say do all those things…not as a forced attempt to lose, but to enjoy them for their own sake. Susie YOU are a hard working inspiration to ME! Working the farm, getting out on sleds, raising children, caring for family and church as well.

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